hear me

On many times during this whole week i wanted to give him my middle finger. He really piss me off… i can’t believe such a person ever existed… he’s really…. an idiot… an obnoxious man… UGHHHH…. i’m never this angry…

He makes me want to complain day in and out until i dont like the current me. I’m full of complain… and he’s the one that causes it. F*ck!!! At most two years and i will be out of this place… i’m not sure whether i can tahan until two years. Maybe even before two years are up, i would just one fine day swear at him right in his face and ask him to Shut the F*ck up!!!

Stupid old man… he should be gone… no one says anythg good about him… doesn’t he realise that? No one likes him at all… his working style sucks… you dont micro-manage people. If you want to do so… go work in some charitable place like MINDswhere the  needies help in every little things. He shld fare very well there… I’m super PISS LA!!!! UGHHHHHH… how i wish he can be on leave forever… dont let me see him in the office. I dont want to talk to him at all…

QI SHI WO LAAA!!! and my people… their total age is ard 120 and they can quarreled in front of me, whom can be their daughter and scream… OMG… i’m speechless… In the end i shouted at them… ” STOP FIGHTING!!!” and they keep quiet… i feel suppressed…

The first financial crisis that i experienced. The world’s economy has buckled… one of the oldest investment bank in US, Lehman brother, is gone… bankruput overnight… Still remember a year ago, I was still wondering what is Lehman Brother as i saw the name flashing page after page on the client’s statement.

And overnight, their asset got reduced as Lehman dissolved… And it never stops. Major banks are restructuring, trying to stay afloat by slashing cost. Retrenchment is everywhere. Reading it on the newspaper didn’t conjure any feeling in me. NOL going to retrench 1,000 employees, Credit Suisse 500 ppl and Citi 52,000… When i read abt Citi’s decision to slash ppl, i never brood abt it for long bcos i know that it won’t affect GWM, where all my ex colleagues are working at. Since GWM is earning $$$…

But on Wed, retrenchment really strikes someone very close to me. One of my favourite colleague @ Citi. She was asked to leave the company and a few more was told to leave too… That’s when I got scared… And yesterday news on Citi planning to sell part or all to other bank dont sink well with me. With its stock price dropping to $4 plus… i fear the dreaded. I hope it will sail past it so that my ex colleague will still have their job. THey have family, commitment and obligations. Going jobless dont seem like a good idea… and maybe i make the right choice to exit the industry just before everything went crashing down…

2009 is going to be an even tough year… Stay strong!!! I’m having a GREAT time reading Twilight on my bed now… super lazy Sat… wat’s missing… a tub of comfort food!!! But not in bed of coz… geee… and it’s going to start raining again… perfecto.

=)

I WANT THIS NOW *look below…

Something is wrong with me.. did they add drug into it? Why am i always craving it???

And i’m very in love with this japanese jelly bean too. It’s called Poifull.

On the packaging it wrote that finding the heart shape jellybean in your packaging means you’re going to be lucky. BUT hoh… so far out of the 3 packet that i bought, i found 2… am i that lucky or they simply insert one heart shape into each packet. Anyway i 不舍得 eat the heart shape jellybean… and so i transferred it into the other pack which i’m popping it almost non stop when i’m kinda bored at work. And i think i accidentally pop one of the heart shape into my mouth… *sigh…

Next topic… Introducing my new Nephew! Isn’t he HANDSOME?!?!?!?!

Looking at my cousins having children do give me the urge to have children right now BUT thinking that i’m still not financially stable, mentally mature and no partner to procreate currently, i push it right to the back of my mind. Muahahahahahhahaaaa… if ever i’m very financially capable and i have a partner whom i want to procreate with and he’s good with children and i get pregnent easily then i’m going to have many babies!!!

I think the government will loves me to death loh. I’m increasing the population but that really makes me sound like one 母猪…

And i’m still learning to Live and Let Live.. the work cultural at my new place does make me go berserk sometime. I almost wanted to scream my head off on my way home when i was driving just now… that bloody naggy feeling… people management is not one easy task to do.

Give me the patience… sometime i feel like re-engineering their whole process… it’s too many process… too many red tape.. too many rules set up by people and in the end. We kill ourselves….

I can’t think of any title so let’s just leave it as title-less for now… Had been sick these few days and I realise one thing. I’m incapable of taking myself. I act like one big baby when i’m sick. Really ONE big baby… motified…

Sat night, i had my first diarrhoea. Went downstair to look for medicine but only manage to find the vomit medicine so i popped that and crawled back up to sleep. I knew the diarrhoea medicine was in my mummy’s room but they had fallen asleep and i dont want to wake them up. And soooo… my diarrhoea nightmare started. I visited the toilet every half an hour. By the time i woke up, i had visited the toilet a grand totle of 10 times.

Woke up rather late and had to visit the company’s doctor at 2pm. Asked brother to drive me down and he oblige. He can’t stand seeing me sick bcos i become very whiney and “tei”. Overnight i become the younger sister and he’s the elder brother. Eat plain porridge and sleep a lot on Sunday. It passes real fast.

Monday is an even sucky day. Even though the diarrhoea and nauseous have subsided but i feel extremely tired and achy all over. I just feel like dying… no appetite to eat and drink and mummy had to force me to eat somethg. She went out in the late afternoon and i was left alone to rot and i started feeling 可怜… HAHAHAHHAHAHA…….

Brother came home and soon daddy came home too. I skipped dinner, went downstair in my long pyjamas pants and my dad was “天气这么热”… but i’m was having chills all over. Dad scolded me for not eating the medicine on Sat night, he said i should have woken them up. And at 23 i still dont know how to take care of myself…. *totally agreed with him…

Went back to my room and fell asleep at 9pm with blankets covering me. AND the best part is… I jumped out of my bed at 10pm bcos i can hear cat meowing outside my room… #%^$%&^&%… Opened the door and sought my brother’s help. I’m amazed that subconciously, i’m still aware that i’m afraid of cat even though i feel so sick. Brother went out to balcony to check out and he came in telling me to sleep with my balcony’s door close and air con on and he tug me back into bed.

Yup i’m a super BRAT when i’m sick…. beware…. and i think i had passed my virus to mummy and sister. Mummy vomited last nite and sister got diarrhoea today… =( POor mummy… but sister is happy bcos she wants to get MC tmr….. wa lao ehhh…. and i swear i look like a dead corpse at work today… maybe that’s the reason why boss dont dare come disturb me. Hahahahaha…..